Razor’s Edge; I will get back up

There will always be times in your life when someone wants to keep you down when you are down instead of offering a hand when you could use one. It’s unfortunate that people don’t practice paying it forward more often. It’s easy to get caught up in the pettiness going on around you when you

Postpartum Depression vs Postpartum Psychosis; 1, 2, 3, 4, – I declare… War?

Are We Battling for Our Place; Our Voice? In my longstanding pursuit of wanting to not only have a voice myself, but to enable others to have a voice in similar circumstances as well, it seems we have (and by “we” I mean ‘me’) inadvertently stepped on some toes. It’s often difficult to be heard

Nightmares: Wicked and Visceral

Visceral dreaming, vivid nightmares I ran out of my Zoloft a couple days ago. Now this has happened before and I am very aware of the pattern. It takes a while before the Zoloft starts to have an effect on my emotions. While that’s still true, I’ve been having vivid nightmares. Oh about what do you ask? Sex imparticular. Along

~All I Want For Christmas is My Sanity~ Oh, and Heat…

My oven isn’t the best at heating the house I thought my oven was doing a pretty good job at supplimenting the heat source in my home to conserve on fuel. That is until it dipped into the single digits. You see, my furnace also heats my hot water, and in a bid to make sure

Crazy Nights Crazy Days

If you don’t go in crazy you’ll come out crazy… First I want to say; a lot actually: AMH I tend to infuse most of my ramblings with humor. I smile and sometimes laugh when it’s most inappropriate. I knew a woman I actually really admired and liked quite a bit who was a female forensic

A Story of Severe Postpartum Depression with Psychotic Features

Tragedies, Trauma, Disasters. What’s the common thread? Unfortunately, these are all the things that in most circumstances have to occur in order for change to happen. Why you ask? I suppose as a “civilized” (and I use that word lightly) society, when things appear to be going along swimmingly, nobody sees a need for change. So, let’s

Rat Infestation, Stellar Turkey Gobblers and Killer Cold Medicine

One of those things is a LIE! So here’s the thing I’ve noticed. Some of you (my readers), are fickle. Actually, that’s not really true. MOST of you require some kind of some strange attention grabbing headline in order to read the article. The article to date that caught the most viewers the fastest; Snot, Diarrhea, Chicken Bones!

Horror Story or Reality?

Living your own worst nightmare This past week I had a conversation with a woman who has had a similar experience to mine. Her husband and her are together, but she is questioning whether or not it will stay that way given all that has happened. We proceeded to talk about my circumstances regarding my

Life For Death Punishment?

Is an Eye for an Eye Always Necessary?   I remember at the very end of my trial when the judge sentenced me to the commissioner (back into AMHI) and said there was nothing he could do to punish me more than what I had already been through. That was just the beginning of my

Dirty Little Secrets

Forced Sterilization or Self Imposed? Compulsory Sterilization in a Civilized World I was 19 and my daughter (Shey) was about 6 months old I am not sure of the exact moment in time when I realized I would have to get sterilized in order for the powers that be to start supporting my release. I just remember